#11

thirdly, i know i have to die eventually, my death is written but it's a secret no one will ever know. it's like jumping off a cliff and not knowing when you'll hit the ground -mariaelena

I flinched a little when i read the second sentence. Imagine yourself falling and just keep falling. It is scary. The moment you hit the ground is the scariest thing when the falling part is already really scary but not knowing when, that's just menggerunkan.

Manusia.

manusia itu degil.
tahu dengan jelas dosa tapi buat.

manusia itu degil.
tahu baik buruk tapi entah kenapa buruk jugak yang dibuat.

manusia itu degil.
tahu salah tapi ego.

manusia itu degil.
tahu peraturan tapi buat langgar je.

manusia itu degil.
tahu arahan tapi sengaja diabaikan.

manusia itu degil.
tahu nanti sakit hati tapi baca juga.

manusia itu degil.
tahu pengalaman mengajar tapi tak mahu belajar daripadanya.

tetapi sedegil manapun manusia itu,
dia tak pernah berhenti untuk belajar.

ya, walaupun sebelum ini dia tak pernah belajar.
it's all faith.

#10

Packing is just one activity I've never enjoyed. It is more to frantic searching than what it is supposed to be. Tomorrow will be a very long day. A few hours in the car. Nice, I can do some sight-seeing. I'm hoping to see real nature. And hopefully tomorrow won't be one very long boring day. I'd be fat if boredom struck. I eat when I'm bored so, yea.