Dec 30, 2013

Swan song, from my messy perspective.

Somehow it's funny I could link this song to my academic life. Amir said I better find my drift back. SPM 2014, it's goin' to be huge for me at least.
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Wretched, look at me, I've lost it, melting on the table
In parking lots and markets
I cant help it, I love you like a starfish loves the salty water
Like a selfish daughter

Yet I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it

Foolish, how was I so careless
Pawning off my treasure, the envy of an heiress
Now my dollars are crumbled in my pocket
How can I reclaim it?
What if someone's got it?

When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it

How could the world have turned so ugly
I am dying
Could you touch me again?
Touch me again

When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
(A Fine Frenzy, Swan Song)

Dec 23, 2013

Mengenali sang Alia.

Dia ada cara tersendiri,
apabila too immersed dalam menyiapkan assignment.

Boleh jadi,
sambil dengar Vienna by Billy Joel,
dia pakai beach hat,
buat kerja folio Biologi.

Selalunya,
lepas siap kerja untuk hari itu,
rambut dia kena--
einsteined.

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Ini yang Nukman kata kepuasan bekerja. Menyiapkan kerja sambil pick up soft skills.

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School's starting. Shall I do a 2013 review post? Or my plans for next year?

Dec 20, 2013

Kalau ikut hati.

Nak aje aku reply apa yang terbuku dalam hati ni,
tapi aku tahu, hati aku sekarang ni,
tak boleh buat fikir,
jadi aku diam.
kau patut berterima kasih sebab tu.

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Tuhan, campak-kan-lah sabar.
Walaupun dah buat 70 excuses dan walaupun dah sampai limit,
Kau campak-kan-lah sabar.

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Kalau bekerja dengan orang-orang macam ni dalam real world nanti,
aku fikir aku lah yang paling tidak reti sabar.
Makanya, perlu belajar bersabar.
Bagi Tuhan sayang.

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One thing that keeps me doing this,
Biar pass soalan Munkar Nakir nanti.
Sebab nak involve in this, pilihan aku.

Dec 14, 2013

Permintaan.

Kerna ia mengalir,
laju dalam buluh darahku.

Berhentinya ia seketika,
matinya aku tika itu jua.

Jangan dipisahkan aku ya Tuhan,
daripada risalahMu yang ini.

Kerna tanpa ia,
ku hanyalah hambaMu yang hina

--afiqsazlan, Hamasah as-Syabab

Dec 13, 2013

Perkhemahan Jati Diri.

A very much overdue post but that aside, it's one of those nights when I feel like sharing something.

I am not going to tell how the camp was from the beginning to the end. I'm gonna tell you (for the sake of me not forgetting all the memories with my batchmates) a few things that I think, are worth writing. Ok laa, not really a few things but rather some people.

First one, Aniq from K4. I was in the umm, that group. I forgot the name. Sorry, guys. Hehe. Anyway, I've always thought Aniq was the fun relax gila-gila type. Probably he is but you know, he's actually very charismatic. During the night briefing, everyone was full of ideas for the tender. We told Aniq a few of our ideas but he told us to wait first and we'll discuss later. Haa, the briefing was still on actually. Dia tak kasi distracted, agaknya. What I remember most was probably during the group presentation. Geografi Kertas 3, ya XD

Next, Shaspreet. I get to know her more during the camp. Tidur sebelah-sebelah. Ouh, we're from the same group too, which I still can't remember. Haa, Tuhan, ampunilah. During the river crossing, she said we should just forget about the wetness and dirtiness and enjoy God's creation. Be grateful :')

Last one, Isaac. It was during the obstacles activity. It was raining really heavily and everyone was having fun. Everyone was very dirty too! We had to go down the military kinda thing. I don't know what it's called. The one with wire above you and you have to go low. My team just finished that one and went to the next station. I saw Issac. We were waiting fr our turn. And that was the first time Isaac talked to me. Not technically the first time but usually it was about Toastmasters but this time, he was like "Hey Alia, look. My shirt is all dirty." With a smile on his face! What I did not understand was, his shirt was not that dirty compared to mine. Dirt was on my tudung, shirt, sleeves, trousers. And Isaac just got what, dirt on his shirt. Haha lol XD It was shocking actually, we talked about other than Toastmasters.

Okay, done about the people. There's more actually. I got to know my batchmates better.

Now, the epic one, in my view lah. We had to safe an egg from cracking. The facilitator will drop the egg from his waist and we were given ten plastic straws and two papers to idk, design whatever that could save the egg from cracking. We brainstormed quite hard. Suddenly Shi Hao got an idea to do this pyramid structure using the straws and extend the end of the straws so if the egg falls, the ends should prolong the time. Yea, physics, you get the idea. Then, after much difficulties, we recited our prayers (Yes, we did that!) before the fall. We were all holding hands while the instructor drop the egg. On the second fall (the egg must be dropped three times), we could hear the cracking sound. We gasped. The third fall was really beautiful, just perfect. It fell on the end. To our surprise, despite the much convincing cracked sound, the egg survived. We almost cried. Hugged each other. It was like sending a child to an exam. Nerve-wrecking!

Another story was when Aiman Nordin told his group's story. How their egg cracked. I cried. Haaa. I cannot hear his story, it's just so full of emotions I'd cry.

Anyway, those are what I've got during the camp. Of course, there are other things too :) Ouh, please forgive me for the language mistakes here. In the mood of sharing, so things just come out no time for checking. Ishh, Alia.


Dec 12, 2013

'jengking', a blog post by Fynn Jamal.

bila aku kata "aku tak suka konfrontasi",
percayalah--
aku sedang menyelamatkan engkau dari aku.

kebinatangan dalam diri ini akan keluar,
bila berada di saat genting.

percayalah--
di konfrontasi--
aku lebih bisa dari jengking.

[via FynnJamal]

Dec 9, 2013

For now or ever.

It's the smile, so rare,
to my now lifeless eyes.

:)

Dec 5, 2013

Bahagia.

Bahagia itu,
pada aku sangat tak adil.
Maaf sebab jahil nak merasa.

Bahagia itu,
pada aku asalkan orang lain bahagia.
Walaupun bahagia orang lain, hati sendiri calar. Balar.

Bahagia itu,
pada aku contagious.
Sebab itu aku tak kisah tercalar--

Bahagia itu,
pada aku satu pelaburan.
Dekat sana nanti you reap what you sow.

Tapi sungguh lah,
perit membahagiakan orang lain.

Tuhan, mohon Engkau ampunkan perempuan ini.

Dec 4, 2013

A letter for Mr. H.

Kehadapan Mr. H,
I'm just curious.
Are you still reading our blogs?

Sincerely,
Alia, your student.

coming.

haritu.

BBST.
adlin messaged.
mom spilled the big news.

ouh i don't know, welcome home, i suppose ;)